Just Breathe

Last night I dreamed I was drowning in a pool. I was deep in the water. I couldn't tell which way was up. I also felt paralyzed. I couldn't move. I breathed in as I was thinking I can't breathe in the water, I'll drown. I got myself moving a little bit, then looked to see if I could tell which way was up & I took another breath. Don't do that you will die, I reminded myself. I told myself to kick my legs, that will move you toward the surface. I breathe again, but I am beginning to move. One more breath & I reach the surface & the edge of the pool. I am assisted out of the water.

In writing about this dream I do not convey the fear I felt as I thought through this dream while pushing myself upward to save myself. After I woke up I could remember the fear, it felt like a real experience. I also felt relief at not drowning & began to wonder if there is any parrallel between my life & this dream. I personally believe I dream about what I am worried about, then twist it! So I decided this dream is synonimous with the 4 weeks I have left in school this semester. I struggled in my dream to breathe 4 times. The water & drowning represent the pressure I put on myself & the feeling I have of being overwhelmed, questioning myself & my ability to finish another semester with good grades. The best part of this analogy is I don't drown! I get through it. I take one step at a time & make it.

As you all know I push everything aside during school. The house goes to pot, I don't cook, I spend a lot of time reading text books. The good news is I am at the end of another semester. Only 3 weeks of class & finals. So, this dream was a good reminder to tell myself to relax & just breathe!